The Sun Is Going Down

Sleeping. I can not sleep. Are you sleeping? You are sleeping. Silence and radiator leaks. Wet towel and a small puddle. Tick-tock like time, that is still available fades away. Excessive thinking is. . . overkill. My thoughts are far away. . . With comfy, with well-known, with beloved. They should be with risk factors, allowable dose. . . with literature. A day without getaways, at least those imaginary ones is a blank one. Is boring. Is it even worth anything ? Someone just rang at the door, it's 2 am. I almost peed myself! My heart  is racing. I was deep in my thoughts. . . I lower the shutters, I have a strange feeling. I don't open the doors, I'm not expecting anyone, ah Life in the apartment building. I collect my thoughts, withdraw my breath, I think. So ... I continue. With Love, Neja

Spati . Ne morem spati. Spiš? Spiš. Tišina in puščanje radiatorja. Mokra brisača in majhna luža. Tik-tak kot bledi in izginja čas, ki je še na voljo . Prekomerno razmišljanje je . . . pretiravanje. Moje misli so daleč . . . Pri  udobnem, pri znanem, pri ljubem. Morale bi biti pri dejavnikih tveganja, pri sprejemljivem vnosu. . .pri literaturi. Dan brez potepov, vsaj tistih v mislih, je prazen. Je dolgočasen. Je sploh česa vreden?  Nekdo je ravno pozvonil pri vratih. 2 zjutraj je. Skoraj mi je ušlo! Srce mi divje razbija. Bila sem globoko zatopljena v svoje misli. Spustim rolete, čuden občutek imam. Ne odprem, nikogar ne pričakujem,  ah življenje v bloku. Zberem misli, posrkam vdih, razmislim. Torej... nadaljujem. Z ljubeznijo, Neja

The Dead Ships - You Were Young  

Day in the life of Neja No.2

I'll never be able to read all the books I want, but I can try to reduce the list. I'll never be as powerful as nature, but I can enjoy its greatness. I am the most stunned, when I feel a memory in the air. . . I can't even explain what am I talking about. When you step out of the house and this is the first moment that you "feel" the weather .. and sometimes it is a warm season, but it just so happens that this is the day when the storm appears.. and the sky is black, as in these photos. Wind blows mysterious, something strange is in the air. . . something unexplainable . . . . it's the spring but it seems like it's autumn. I don't know why, but the feeling that  this kind of weather gives me, reminds me of something from the past. . . nothing specific, or a specific event, but the feeling that overwhelms me is some kind of Déjà vu.. It is nice and scary at the same time. I wish this feeling  would last longer, but it only appears for a few seconds. With Love, Neja

Nikoli mi ne bo uspelo prebrati vseh knjig, ki jih hočem, lahko pa se potrudim zmanjšati seznam. Nikoli ne bom tako mogočna, kot je narava, lahko pa uživam v njeni veličini. Najbolj me presune, kadar v zraku začutim spomin . . . ne znam niti dobro pojasniti kaj imam s tem v mislih. Ko stopiš ven iz hiše in je to prvi trenutek, ko "začutiš" vreme.. in včasih je topel letni čas ampak je slučajno dan, ko se pripravlja na nevihto..in je nebo črno, kot na teh fotografijah. Veter zapiha misteriozno, nekaj čudnega je v zraku .  . . nekaj nepojasnljivega .... v bistvu je pomlad ampak zdi se , da je jesen. Ne vem zakaj, ampak občutek, ki ti ga da tako vreme, me spomni na nekaj iz preteklosti . . . na nič konkretnega, nikakor ne na specifičen dogodek, ampak občutek, ki me preplavi je kot nekakšen Déjà vu. Je prijetno in strašno hkrati. Želim si, da bi dalj časa trajal ta občutek, ampak vedno se pojavi samo za par sekund. Z ljubeznijo, Neja

My first video + random pics from past weeks

Today I'm posting  the video, which was filmed on my birthday. I'll probably post once in a while some videos to spice up the scene in this blog =). And such random everyday photos like this. With Love, Neja

Danes objavljam video, ki je bil posnet na moj rojstni dan. Verjetno bom vsake toliko objavila kakšen video, da popestrim tole sceno na blogu =). In take naključne vsakodnevne fotke, kot so te. Z ljubeznijo, Neja

1.The center of Ljubljana city  on a rainy day. 2. Paris Mini Cake ... this one was superb! 3. Drinking tea while reading the book by Jon Krakauer: Into the wild. A great true story of a boy who was so sick of materialistic society  that he left everything and went to Alaska. 4. I often get hungry while I'm on computer so I act like a squirrel and pick nuts out of the jar full of homemade mixture of cereal. 5. This was the first real sign of spring, I love flowers in the vase! 6. New cute things for the apartment. 7. Heeeeey! =) 8. Breakfast: Quinoa with molasses and fruit. 9. Oooo, yeah, how cute is this sister's cat! 10. One of the favorite bracelets.

1. Center Ljubljane na deževen dan. 2. Mini pariška torta... tale je bila vrhunska! 3. Pitje čaja ob branju knjige V divjino od Jona Krakauerja. Odlična resnična zgodba fanta, ki se mu je materialistična družba tako zagravžala, da je pustil vse in odšel na Aljasko. 4. Pred računalnikom me velikokrat popade lakota in potem kot kakšna veverica brskam oreščke ven iz kozarca domače mešanice kosmičev. 5. Tole je bil prvi pravi znak pomladi, obožujem cvetje v vazi! 6. Nove luškane stvari za stanovanje. 7. Heeeeej! =) 8. Zajtrk: kvinoja z melaso in sadjem. 9. Oooo, ja kako srčkan je tale sestrin muci! 10. Ena izmed najljubših zapestnic.

1. I'm not a coffee drinker, but cappuccino tempts me once in a while. 2. Birthday cake. 3. I went running with  huge blisters, when I returned home, I nearly had a stroke when I saw this bloody massacre :/. 4. Bonfire on Rožnik. 5. Ljubljana .. if I close one eye and a half I can pretend that I'm in Amsterdam :D. 6. Homemade ice cream, made only with frozen bananas. 7. Oooohh yeaah ... Running, running, running! 8. Veggie burger- now this is the kind of lunch I really like .. here is the recipe. 9. Yankee candles, gift by my friend. 10. Another book read! Eat, pray, love-Elizabeth Gilbert. Every woman should, in my opinion, go on a trip around the world for one year.

1. Nisem kavopivec, kapučino me pa vseeno vsake toliko zamika. 2. Rojstnodnevna torta. 3. Na tek sem se odpravila z gromozanskimi žulji, ko sem se vrnila domov, me je skoraj kap, ko sem zagledala ta krvav masaker :/. 4. Kres na Rožniku. 5. Ljubljana.. če zamižim na eno oko in pol se lahko pretvarjam, da sem v Amsterdamu :D. 6. Domač sladoled, vse kar sem naredila je to, da sem zmiksala zmrznjeno banano. 7. Oooohh yeaah... tek, tek, tek!! 8. Vegi burger, tako kosilo mi je všeč..tukaj je recept. 9. Yankee sveče, darilo frendice. 10. Še ena knjiga prebrana! Jej, moli, ljubi- Elizabeth Gilbert. Vsaka ženska bi se po mojem mnenju morala potepati po svetu eno leto.

1. Let's go to Kranj-family lunch. 2. These donuts with hazelnut cream are probably the best donuts ever! 3. A rare moment of tenderness by  insanely aggressive cat. 4. Salad with avocado, potatoes and grated carrots. 5. Another bracelet, which I love. 6. I was not going to eat dessert again but if you're in the Crystal Palace, then you just must try something sweet;). 7. Banana smoothie with dates. 8. I survived another running session!  9. Ahh, Ljubljana ... 10. Reading the book I was gay by Luca di Tolve. True story of an Italian gay, who became straight with the help of religion, I doubt that this is really possible, but ... still an interesting insight into gay life.

1. Pojdimo v Kranj na družinsko kosilo. 2. Tile krofi z lešnikovo kremo so po vsej verjetnosti najboljši krofi ever! 3. Redek trenutek nežnosti blazno agresivnega mačka. 4. Solata z avokadom, krompirjem in naribanim korenjem. 5. Še ena zapestnica, ki mi je zelo ljuba. 6. Nisem nameravala spet grešiti ampak, če si že v Kristalni palači, se ni treba zadrževati ;). 7. Bananin smoothie z dateljni. 8. Odtekla, preživela še en tek! 9. Ahh, Ljubljana... 10. Branje knjige Bil sem gej avtorja Luca di Tolve. Resnićna zgodba Italijana-geja, ki je s pomočjo vere postal heteroseksualec. Sama sicer dvomim, da je to resnično možno, ampak...vseeno zanimiv vpogled v gejevsko življenje.

This Is How I Spent My 27th Birthday

I remember the feeling, the taste ... of a song. The sun's heat on my eyelids. Desire to 'escape'. Lightness on the shoulders. Our forest, which lies close to  ... something. We're just ours. Your true self ... freedom. No sounds, noise, questions ... just stillness. When the soul speaks. The kiss of spring on fingertips ... I want to stay ... at this picnic of emotions. With Love, Neja

Spomnim se občutka, okusa... pesmi. Toplote sonca na vekah. Želje po 'pobegniti'. Lahkote na ramenih. Najin gozd, ki leži blizu... nečesa. Sva samo najina. Tvoj pravi jaz... svoboda. Nič šumenja, hrupa, motenj, vprašanj... samo mirovanje, tišina. Ko duša spregovori. Poljub pomladi na konicah prstov... želim ostati... na temu pikniku čustev. Z ljubeznijo, Neja

Ginger tea & Tracy Chapman

What? It's snowing, again!? Na - a! Okay, then ... hmmm .. then, yes then I'll read a book, listen to music, paint my nails, light a candle and eat cookies. Eh, the hell with everything! Teas are something for my soul. If you are not tea-person, then you probably really can not understand what is the point. It's just colored water right? And if you drink it without sugar (like me), then it gets even more boring, right? NO! I drink it because I associate it with peace. The ritual of preparing and drinking tea, is so calming.  I am slowly building a tower of little tea boxes at home .. hmm, maybe I really have too many of them. Ginger is very healthy and the first time I prepared this tea, it was so good that I prepared it again this week. Great aroma of cinnamon and cloves, and slightly spicy taste of ginger. Just boil water, remove, add all three ingredients and leave for 10 minutes. Then it is best to at least remove the ginger, otherwise the  taste will be too intense. I can not believe how this one song gets to me each time I listen to it, I could cry at 1:15. Tracy ... My God, what a woman with such a big heart! And her sincere smile! Why can't we have more people like her in this world? Did you know that she started playing guitar and writing songs when she was eight years old!?? Impressive activist and her concern for human rights can be seen in the song "Talkin '' Bout a Revolution". People like her  are my role models. With tears in my eyes, I wish you a nice evening. With love, Neja

Kaj?? Spet sneži? Na-a! Okej, potem pa...hmmm..potem pa, ja potem bom brala knjigo, poslušala musko, lakirala nohte, prižgala svečko in jedla piškote. Eh, k vragu vse skupaj! Čaji so nekaj za mojo dušo. Če nisi čaj-oseba, potem verjetno res ne moreš razumeti v čemu je poanta. Saj je samo obarvana voda kajne? In če ga piješ brez sladkorja (kot jaz), potem je vse skupaj še bolj dolgočasno, kajne? NE! Pijem ga zato, ker me asociira na mir. Obred priprave in pitje čaja, deluje popolnoma pomirjujoče. Doma počasi gradim stolp iz vseh čajnih škatlic..hmm, mogoče jih imam res preveč. Ingver je zelo zdrav in ko sem prvič pripravila ta čaj, mi je bil tako všeč, da sem ga ta teden še enkrat. Super aroma po cimetu in klinčkih, in rahlo pekoč okus ingverja. Samo zavrite vodo, odstavite, dodajte sestavine in počakajte 10 minut. Potem pa je najboljše, da vsaj ingver odstranite, ker bo drugače okus preveč intenziven. Ne morem verjeti, kako me tale song vsakič prevzame, na 1:15 bi lahko zajokala. Tracy... Moj bog, kako srčna ženska! In njen iskren nasmeh! Zakaj ni več TAKIH oseb na temu svetu? Ste vedeli, da je začela igrati kitaro in pisati pesmi že pri osmih letih!??? Občudovanja vredna aktivistka in njena skrb za človeške pravice se vidi v pesmi "Talkin' 'Bout a Revolution". Take osebe so moji vzorniki. S solzami v očeh, vam želim lep večer. Z ljubeznijo, Neja

Tracy Chapman - Baby Can I Hold You 

Sorry

Is all that you can't say

Years gone by and still

Words don't come easily

Like sorry like sorry

Forgive me

Is all that you can't say

Years gone by and still

Words don't come easily

Like forgive me forgive me

But you can say baby

Baby can I hold you tonight

Maybe if I told you the right words

At the right time you'd be mine

I love you

Is all that you can't say

Years gone by and still

Words don't come easily

Like I love you I love you

I feel / Čutim

We are here to create. That we in words, pictures, designs,  ... show what we feel. To speak. To make a mirror image of the emotions that drive us. It seems to me that some people have  this door immediately open. They instinctively feel the desire to create. Some have to look a little harder to find the key. We are here to listen to ourselves, not everyone who comes along when we walk on  the path of life. We shouldn't  give as much emphasis on the people that surround us. Do you realize how people affect you? And if you were surrounded by other people, everything would be different. So it's all very relative. Don't give such power to the people. We have to give that power to ourselves. We need to listen to ourselves. We need to love ourselves. When you realize, that  the only one that can truly make you happy, is you alone .... everything changes. What kind of relationship you have with yourself ... that's important. It's hard for me, when I see how someone puts his whole life in someone else's hands. How they  mistakenly think  that one person is  EVERYTHING. I  want to grab that person  by the shoulders, lift him, shake him hard and knock out that stupid way of thinking. No one has that power, you alone have it. And another thing that I personally find very important is .... that we should not adapt to people around us, yes, you do to some extent but I am thinking of a situations where you are surrounded by people who are very different from you and then you adjust yourself to them and then you are like them. And then you just attract more of those kind of  people. Be what you are. If you have an opinion, tell it. If you are an energetic person, who quickly gets excited by something, then show that. If something does not seem right to you, then speak about it. Of course, there are situations where you simply say: Ah hell, these people are not worthy of my real personality. This happens to me often .. sometimes you have to really choose which battles are worth fighting for. The best feeling in the world is, when you meet people who are just like you. I found that it's very important that the people around me are very similar to me. I am here to create. To feel. To love. To live. To laugh. With Love, Neja

Tukaj smo, da ustvarjamo. Da z besedami, slikami, kreacijami,  ... pokažemo, kaj čutimo. Da spregovorimo. Da naredimo zrcalno sliko emocijam, ki nas poganjajo. Zdi se mi, da imajo nekateri ta vrata takoj odprta. Instinktivno čutijo željo po ustvarjanju. Nekateri pa morajo malo močneje iskati, da najdejo ključ. Tukaj smo, da sebe poslušamo, ne pa vsakega, ki pride mimo, ko hodimo po poti življenja. Ne smemo dajati toliko poudarka ljudem, ki nas obdajajo. Se zavedate, kako ljudje vplivajo na vas? In če bi vas drugi ljudje obdajali, bi bilo vse drugače. Torej je vse zelo relativno. Zato  ne smemo podarjati take moči ljudem. Sebi jo moramo dati. Sebe moramo poslušati. Sebe moramo imeti radi. Ko dojameš, da je edini, ki te resnično lahko osreči, ti sam.... se vse spremeni. Kakšen odnos imaš sam s sabo... to šteje. Težko mi je, kadar vidim, kako nekdo celo svoje življenje postavi v roke nekoga drugega. Kako zmotno misli, da je tista oseba VSE. Tako osebo si želim zagrabiti za ramena, dvigniti, stresti in ji izbiti to neumno razmišljanje iz glave. Nihče nima te moči, ti sam jo imaš. In še ena stvar, ki se meni osebno zdi zelo pomembna je....da se ne smemo prilagoditi ljudem okoli sebe, do neke mere že ampak v mislih imam situacijo, ko te obdajajo ljudje, ki so precej drugačni od tebe in se jim potem prilagodiš in izpadeš še sam tak. In potem privlačiš samo še več takih ljudi. Bodi to, kar si. Če imaš mnenje, ga povej. Če si energična oseba, ki se hitro navduši nad vsem, potem pokaži to. Če se ti nekaj ne zdi prav, potem spregovori. Seveda so situacije, ko si preprosto rečeš: Ah k vragu, ti ljudje niso vredni moje prave osebnosti, ne da se mi. To se meni velikokrat dogaja..včasih moraš res izbrati, katere bitke je vredno bojevati. Najboljši občutek na svetu je, ko spoznaš sebi enake ljudi. Odkrila sem, da je zelo pomembno, da me obdajajo ljudje, ki so mi zelo podobni. Tukaj sem, da ustvarjam. Da čutim. Da ljubim. Da živim. Da se smejim. Z ljubeznijo, Neja